K: I keep going to meditation but I don't seem to be making any progress, what should I do?
O: What do you mean by progress?
K: I don't know, I don't feel I am getting anywhere, I am not calm like you?
O: So you have an image of me as calm and you are trying to replicate this image? Meditation is about letting go of identities, all identities. But often people go to meditation and build an identity of a meditator. Then the meditator wants to get better at meditating; this meditator judges the meditation as good or as bad, and starts seeking good meditation. This becomes another seeking, a chase for something to be acquired. My advice is to just sit quietly and watch the thoughts that arise and pass, just watch them. It would help if you put your attention in your body, and observe whatever happens without judgment or analysis. Just observe, without any expectation of this or that happening. Just let go of all the seeking, just sit quietly.
V: You told me to look. I looked and I see nothing, am I nothing? Could you tell me what I am then?
O: Grace brought you here, and with grace your all identities dissolved, now you want to build another identity. This can be disturbing, but I am not here to give you another identity. I am only here to help you give them all up. I am not giving you anything to make a belief about. You already know that anything you believe is on the level of mind, you can disbelieve it tomorrow. Any identity you build for yourself is also on the level of mind; every night you go to sleep, what happens to all identities?
V: They are not there, they are gone, nothing is there.
O: So you know that no identities are there in deep sleep. And you also just said that you looked and there was nothing. So now the thought arises; What is this, I can't be nothing, I have to be something? And while you have been sitting here, every so often you feel like open space, no boundaries, identification with mind and body drops. Just be quiet, there is nothing to do, you already are, don't make any image of yourself. All images come and go.